![]() ![]() I’ve often considered what I would talk about when I started writing again. Compassion for the mistakes of my past and trust that I can guide myself to a bright future. I’m going to allow more of my soft edges to peek out and seek help and care when I need it. But on this day I’m going to get out of my fighting stance and try to lean into vulnerability. ![]() The things that were designed to break me haven’t and I’m still standing, always fighting. I told someone recently that I’m tired of being resilient. On this day that I celebrate myself I’m reminded that I deserve to be celebrated. Got dressed and kept my plans and was so happy I did, it was a beautiful day. I had Stevie kick it off singing Happy Birthday and five songs into my power playlist I was singing Fighter out loud with Christina Aguilera. Just sad and on my birthday smh.īut I got on up and changed the music. I wanted to take a long walk off a short cliff. By the time I woke up this morning it was raining and Thinkin Bout You had taken up residence in my head. Next thing I know I’m playing damn Channel Orange on a loop until 4am, walking down old dusty roads in my mind that I had no business on. Last night, as I’m screwing around online I see this Frank Ocean song and I’m like “oh let me play that I haven’t heard that album in awhile.” Yeah. I’ve been excited for weeks about my birthday, which is rare for me. However, that day is just as much Wyatt’s birthday as it is hers and I never want him to grow up thinking that he isn’t worth celebrating!ĭo you have a special tradition in your family to celebrate the birthday of a child or other loved one who is no longer with you? I would love to hear about it! You can comment on this post or email. If Olivia hadn’t been a twin I imagine I would celebrate her birthday completely differently. I don't believe there is a one-size-fits-all for celebrating birthdays after a child passes away. We always want him to know just how much we celebrate the wonderful young man he is becoming! This year my husband and I were determined more than ever to make sure Wyatt felt celebrated, joyful and completely happy on his birthday. He is always missing his sister and at times in his young life has struggled to really celebrate his own birthday because of the grief he feels. It’s heartbreaking to think that just as February 19th is bittersweet for me each year, it is equally as bittersweet for Wyatt. It was really wonderful to see him find some real joy in his birthday. He chose a dinner destination for our family, selected the perfect lego set from Target, and excitedly planned his birthday party for a few days later. And so that’s exactly what we did! But then the rest of the day was all about celebrating our sweet Wyatt. He asked if we could have special pancakes in the morning with an “O” drawn on each one with chocolate syrup. This year though Wyatt wanted to do something a little different. Other years we’ve made the party all about Wyatt and just taken time to remember Olivia at home as a family. For many years we would have a special cake for Olivia at our birthday parties and a balloon to represent her. On this bittersweet day I have struggled to find a balance between the grief that fills my heart on that day and the joy I have in my little boy. It is bitter because I am always missing my little girl. It is so sweet because I still have a wonderful 10 year old boy to celebrate. Their birthday is now a really bittersweet day for me each year. Wyatt continues to fight a battle with diabetes, but is still living a healthy and happy life with his family. Olivia fought a big battle with brain cancer and would only celebrate one birthday on earth with her family before God called her home. ![]() Now 10 years later it is hard to believe how much life has changed. It turned out that I had developed pulmonary edema and just like that I was whisked away to an emergency c-section and told that would be the day my twins would be born. My doctor ordered an X-ray to take a look at my chest. But on the morning of FebruI woke up feeling like someone had put a pile of bricks on my chest. I was life-flighted a few days earlier to Denver in the hopes that with treatment my body could hang on just a little bit longer so I could get closer to my April due date. I had developed preeclampsia and had gotten incredibly sick. Ten years ago was a scary day in many ways. It’s really amazing to think how much all of our lives have changed since then. On that beautiful day my twins, Wyatt & Olivia, entered this world and my life changed forever. This past Saturday marked 10 years since I first became a mom. ![]()
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After that, unzip and move AppBox.app into /Applications directory. #APPBOX FOR DROPBOX INSTALL#I tried with different Macs with different MacOS versions but got the same result.If you face any issue using above command then you can manually install AppBox by downloading it from here. ![]() AppBox sees my Dropbox account and gives correct storage values. My predecessor in my position managed to do it with AppBox. One time it stuck at the "Checking IPA file" phase for over 60 hours. It builds using the schema but after finishing building it gave me the same error. #APPBOX FOR DROPBOX ZIP#When I try the only thing I get is an error that says "failed to open zip file". Title - Error Message - Errors due to a problem on the client-side of the SDK. NSError = "Error Domain=NSURLErrorDomain Code=-1001 \"The request timed out.\" UserInfo=" Which macOS version did you experience the issue on? So jenkins can read the variable to get final URL. My Opinion: You can set Environment variable to save Share URL. Also there should be an option to get final Share URL when successfully uploaded to Dropbox. It should close automatically when upload competed / failed. There should be dedicated command line option to upload IPA alone to DropBox without any user interaction. #APPBOX FOR DROPBOX UPDATE#
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